A new direction in life. People just walk into your life and walk out again. Not much significance in my life. Walking on the road again today. Keeps me thinking. Why are all the people rushing? What are they rushing for? I'm kind of addicted to this hyper fast-paced life. Holidays are here. Pace of living is back to slow and laze around state. I hate this. What a waste of time. Probably because I havent really planned my post exams schedule; putting only the large stones in the glass bottle but not the fine sand and pebbles yet. The weather makes me moody. Hot and stuffy. 5th day into the holidays. There are a lot of things for me to do yet I just dont feel like doing, not motivated to do. I feel lonely doing those things alone, only my laptop and I, an object and I. Being alone is not frightening, being lonely then is frightening. My Malaysia trip was postponed. Postponed, not really cancelled but I don't feel good because it fell out of my plans. My schedule goes haywire, so screwed up. These days my mind just isnt thinking clearly. Why do I feel so tensed? A stubborn girl I am who refuse to give in. Little things just matter to her a lot. Yah it matters. It really matters.
