Gonna post up my last entry before closing my blog for awhile until end of 2009.

Hahaz. Wondering what I've been doing these days?

I've found myself a job, thanks to my darling lao shu who introduced me to Synergy Direct under Starhub.

I just love this job! (:

BOss is DAMN nice! Colleagues are DAMN friendly! Pay is DAMN good!

I'm getting a promotion and payrise next month, to senior direct sales officer. (:

If nothing goes wrong, I will be getting another promotion and payrise after next month to executive sales officer. Wahahahaz!!!

Recently I've been busy busy busy, conducting interviews and training newcomers but luckily I managed to hit my sales target set by company, quite lucky because bukit panjang is a really prosperous place. (: So just let lady luck stay by my side and let me hit my own personal sales target and hopefully hit my boss's target for me which I think is really impossible considering that I only have 3 more days to get 9 deals. BUT I still have to get it before the month ends. I dont really consider this as a job, I call this a challenge- a great pleasure in life is doing what people say you cannot do.

A few days ago, I've been quite unlucky, I was harassed by one of my customers. A disgusting daddy aged indian guy who called to talk crap, telling me how sweet and nice my voice was when that day I was having flu and sore throat and I couldnt talk properly. He even asked where I stay and asked me out for dinner. I regretted talking to him for 20min trying to explain to him starhub products. 20min wasted and deal closed because he owed starhub 600 bucks. That day was a horrible day for me, he kept sending me text messages asking me if he could call me to chat with me and listen to my voice. YUCKS!!!!! In the end my boss settled for me, gave him warnings not to disturb me anymore. Phew...

Everyday I'm just looking forward to evening because I'm working in the evening, on weekends and public holidays. Maybe is because I really feel very stressed practising my piano. My parents are pushing me, my teacher is pushing me. From stress to fear to phobia to resistance. Every week, I get scoldings from teacher, constantly demoralising me, telling me how lousy a pianist I am. "You will definitely FAIL your exams, I tell you for sure!" Patrick told me that is called reverse psychology but sometimes I really cannot take it anymore. I really feel like giving up, no matter how many hours a day I practise on the piano, my teacher still tells me the same things, " No clarity, No rhythm, No expressions, No colours, you are hopeless!" Jaylo asked me to quit but I dont want, I really want to learn and play a proper classical piece for my grandpa, my only motivation for me to hang on. I miss him, a lot.

So now, I'm thinking of looking for another job, horse handler at Singapore Turf Club. I've decided to try out that job, if not I will never going to have this chance and the time again and also to keep my mind free from stress. I know this cannot carry on for long, I may just tire myself out again. I just recovered from my fever, cough, flu and sore throat. 1st time, 40.5 degree celcius. My doctor was telling me, seldom teenagers will have such a high temperature. Papa came back for 1 month for holiday, that fateful day I was still having lunch and reading newspapers with him at the hawker centre. Immediately after I got home, I collapsed. Papa still said it's okay and he continued to read his newspapers. =_= Then after 3 hours, he finally realised something wasnt right and finally brought me to see the doctor. My papa is just so cute. I slept for 3 whole days, 72 hours in total. I could really feel my body breaking apart, that was my 1st time I thought I was going to die soon. I felt so scared, 1st time in my life death was so near me, a very different feeling from what I had when I was hospitalised at 4 years old and 11 years old for lungs infections. BUt now, I'm back to the healthy YueQiu!. Wahahahaz. There are just so many so many things for me to do, so many places that I want to go, I'm going HongKong to visit my hongkie buddies after their A levels, following lao xiu and her PRC friends to ningpo maybe, going with lao ren gang to malaysia maybe, south korea and japan trip with subee, jaylo and jiawei after the guys' NS and one more overseas trip with GAHA for youth exchange programmes...and many many more things which I want to learn...

So yah, be strong, YueQiu!

Little aeroplane, little aeroplane, please take me with you.

If you get there before I do, dont give up on me.

...because I'm right here waiting.

Never give up.