Before you read this entry, read the previous one 1st coz it's linked.
continued from previous...
about what happened yesterday...
I know it's all about skills and I shant find any excuses for myself. Yesterday I could feel that my heart was bursting with disappointment and embarrassment. How did it turn out to be like this?
Yesterday in hall, I just could not control my hands, my fingers. They just went out of control and they became so cold and were shaking. The piano has become a complete stranger to me. Even for my favourite piece, Marriage d'amour, the feel was not there anymore, no feel, out of rhythm, the impact, can really make me cry. After that incident that happened a few months ago, I havent been playing the piano. Yes it's all about skill. I have lost this skill. Utter disappointment.
This morning, my piano teacher called me. She asked me if I want to continue. On...I will continue no matter what.

Today...went to buy Wendy n boon's bdae present. I bought roses. They are beautiful. I love roses...so nice. Red n purple for both. On my way back home waiting for bus at the interchange, I saw my guides senior...2 yrs older than me, I think she's in U now. She was with her boyfriend, they were hugging n kissing n squeezing each other. That guy touched her butt n squeezed it...oh man...so gross. I think she recognized me but chose to ignore me.
Now, " Is Public Display of Affection(PDA) wrong?"
For me I think it's very wrong. Yes I am a very conservative person. If you want to do it, do it at home or some other places. You will say,"everyone is doing it, why cant I?" That's call pressure from society or bad influence from society. By having PDA, you are making pple uneasy, in other words, the pple are deprived of their freedom, like giving up the back seats...etc. That's a crime. For example you are on a crowded bus, and this couple are sitting at the rear seats and are doing some "stunts". Will you go n sit beside them and take it as if nothing is happening? If you and your boyfriend or girlfriend is one of these couple, will you get irritated when someone keeps staring at you or some kids keep asking their mothers," mommy, what are they doing?" The worst thing is...when these kids say," mommy I also want to be like that when I grow up." So there will be like increasing no. of pple getting AIDS and premarital sex in the next 50years. Thus for the sake of everyone, pls do all these at home. You can say that "I always do that with my girlfriend/boyfriend...none of your business!" Well...I just want to say...spare a thought for others.